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« on: July 28, 2014, 11:11:52 PM »
First of all I am not an expert in these things. There are many occasions in past and even in present I submit myself to these feelings. In my case, it is impulse of anger which lasts only for few seconds but impact lasts for long time. I get frustrated when these things happen, question myself 'what is the point in doing all these things if I can not contain my anger or frustration.
In your case I think you are on path of getting rid of those thoughts. At least the first step - recognizing it and accepting that it is wrong. Most of the people do not even think that it is wrong.
Reading Master sayings is only one part of it. Masters writings, though very practical, requires practice. For ex, In book called Sai Master Pravachanalu, Master told "whenever such thought occurs, try not to fight it, or suppress it. Just observe and identify (Gurthupattu) that 'I am getting this feeling'. The moment you identify it, you do not become immersed in that or you do not get caught in that. When you do not get caught in that, taadaatmyata will not be there in those things. I think we can say it as first step. Because most of the times when these thoughts, (anger, desire or anything) occur one thing leads to another and we will end up in a web created by ourselves.
Also I strongly believe parayana helps. Along with Sai Leelamrtam try reading (at least few page per day) Sai Master pravachanalu, prabhodamrtam. And perhaps few verses daily from Bhagavadgita. They stand as protection by our side and helps us in encountering these negative thoughts. But first and foremost, from inside of our heart we should have strong desire to get rid of these negativity.
I am not sure I answered your question. Pardon my English.
Sairam